It has been a while since I have done any serious writing. Last time was really as I was redefining myself as a civilian from the time I retired to the time I met my wife and graduated college.
It is time to start writing again. Many reasons I might get into later but for now it is enough to know that I found it useful to write when I wanted to change who I was. First key is to know what why and who I am, if I want to make anything better. Self knowledge is the life hack with the greatest multiplier.
I like Sisyphus as an icon. I like how Camus aligned the need for meaning in life with the absurdity of reality. I like how Sisyphus reminds me of how I don't need to be invincible. I just need to not give up. I don't need to be flawless, I just need to keep getting better. I don't have to never fail, I just have to trend upwards.
Sisyphus deals with finding himself at the bottom of the hill over and over and over. I like to think he was always better hilltop over hilltop. I like to think he uses his time at the bottom of the hill for self-reflection.
Maybe there are more than one areas on the hill to reflect, like campsites on the way to the top of a mountain. Some are closer to the top of the hill, some are further. Only the Sherpa get familiar with all of the spots, and this is certainly my mountain. I am back down at base camp training up a new me. I'll see how much the guy has learned before we heads back up.