The first thing I thought of when I read this weeks theme was….crap. Why are the limits so strict? Last week I had to choose just one guy to spend a day with, now I have to pick just three moments. How unfair is that?
I feel pity for someone who has only three favorite moments. But the theme is not best moments…it is a superlative. What are the three BEST moments? This site doesn’t let me be vague, if I want to play.
If I could group situations into the three best types of situations, it would be easier.
The birth of a child is a wondrous thing, and I have been pleased to witness the birth of two of my children, Calvin and Katja.
But that would be unfair to the births I did not see. Kristopher was born when I was in Iraq in 1990. My ex step son Tyler was born when I was in Macedonia getting ready to enter Kosovo with the IET. I would not want to imply that their births were less special just because I happened to be getting shot at. Saying that the birth was great, because it led to the life (albeit sometimes short) of my children, would not discriminate against peacetime, but then it would be four, instead of three. Curse these limits.
The moment my wives said, “I do”. Those were great moments, but I had three. I would neither want to imply that they were the best moments, cause wife number three was the best (which is why she is current one, of course, but I loved all three, in their time), nor would I want to have to be restricted to those three. It was extremely wonderful, those moments that I realized that I had found a person that I loved, and loved me, but I would hate to think that only happens only three times, let alone just once.
To love is to honor someone, (except agape, or brotherly, love. It should be freely given, but taken away when misused) because it is a great gift as well as recognition of worth. We do not love just anyone. Whether we know it or not, there are reasons for loving the people that we do. We can either choose to decide these reasons or just go with what nature and our upbringing gave us. One of my best moments would be the day that I realized that my love was not something that could be demanded of me, that it was mine to give to whomever I chose.
Cogito, ergo sum. I think, therefore I am. Rene Descartes is credited with saying this first, but I doubt he was the first to realize it. He was probably the first with the balls to say it. Luckily it was during the Renaissance, so he had only a small chance to be burned at the stake for heresy.
I think, therefore I am. It means that I need no validation on my life, or permission to live. The fact that I am able to consider my mortality and my existence is proof enough that I am here, and reason enough for me to exist. We can think about stuff and figure it out. Now, the geek side of me just loves this part. There are no mysteries that are impossible to understand, there is nothing that must be taken on faith alone. My mother-in-law has that classic faith about her religion; meaning she never had to think about it. She just has faith. I respect her faith, because she does not misuse it. I only take offense when someone tries to use their faith as a proof that I have to change my beliefs. Well, I take offense as well as a great deal of pleasure in hurting their feelings for attempting to pass counterfeit bills in my mental store.
If I need to know it, I can understand it, I can investigate it, and I can prove it. There are no inconsistencies in life, there are no contradictions. If you find a contradiction, you have to examine your basic premises. You will find that one of them is wrong.
There is an epiphany in every Mans life, where he or she realizes that they are the highest form of life on this planet. The ramifications are that, since I can analyze everything, I am left no excuse for doing something on accident. My actions should be well thought out, the possible results weighed carefully, and full responsibility should be taken any time action is. The devil does not make me do bad things, nor do I kill, wound or harm merely because I am told to (Nuremberg War Crimes Tribunal, look it up). I am the master of my fate, and the Captain of my ship on the sea of life. (That sounds pretty lame without background music, but that is how I feel. I am straight out of a comic book in some ways.) The moment that I realized that I could think, and accepted the responsibility for my actions, is the second best moment of my life.
My mother was Catholic, but excommunicated because she had the nerve to remarry after her husband died without getting the first marriage annulled. This would have made my half brother a bastard, by definition. And though he was a bastard to me quite often as I grew up, I fully understand her reasons for telling the Catholic Church to kiss her rather large ass. So she took us all on an exploration of religions, or so I thought. We were just going to different Christian churches. But they have the same basic message: we are all worthless in the eyes of some supreme being who is jealous, petty, and prideful. The only way we can gain entrance into some mythical realm is to accept grace, because works are not enough. And, best of all, when we get there to heaven we get to spend eternity worshiping at this little tyrants feet. Yipee kay yay. I kind of understand why Lucifer bailed. So I became agnostic, practically and for all intensive purposes, atheist.
Later, when I had grown up at least to the extent I could join the Army, I found there were people in the world who were not Christian. (gasp!) So I studied Hindu, Buddhism, metaphysics, Ritual, or High Magic, Hopi, Navajo, and any other religion I could find. They all had a lot of Truth in them, none of them seemed to be all Truth.
I think religion is like a path on a mountain or a stream running to the sea. Paths and streams converge, all ending at the top of the mountain or the sea. Each taking a different route, but all making it to the destination. I realized that any Path could be suited to someone, but the purpose of life was to find the Path that suited me. I found paganism, in which I could be very eclectic, worship in tune with the Earth, respect all living things, and not have my attitudes towards sexuality (read Heinlein) and freedom (read Rand) be disparaged.
My greatest moment was when I figured out my place in the Universe to an extent that I was satisfied with the answer, even though I continue searching for Truth wherever I find it.
The Infantry manual tells us to never wait until all the information is available to make a plan, never wait until the plan is perfect to act, and never fail to adapt the plan when the situation dictates. That is how I live my life. The manual also says that any plan, no matter how lame, if executed with motivation and discipline, is better than a flawless plan never executed. That is how I live my life.
Are they related? Yeah, I think so. I think, I love, I evolve. If I could not think, I could not have recognized true love. If I was not willing to risk true love, I would never truly understood the nature of my immortality, and if the energy that is me and my Higher Self were not immortal, it avails me not that I can think.
Happy Birthday, Katja!!! I love you more than I will be able to show in one lifetime