31 December, 2019

Time to iterate

It has been a while since I have done any serious writing.   Last time was really as I was redefining myself as a civilian from the time I retired to the time I met my wife and graduated college.

It is time to start writing again.  Many reasons I might get into later but for now it is enough to know that I found it useful to write when I wanted to change who I was.  First key is to know what why and who I am, if I want to make anything better.  Self knowledge is the life hack with the greatest multiplier.

I like Sisyphus as an icon.  I like how Camus aligned the need for meaning in life with the absurdity of reality.  I like how Sisyphus reminds me of how I don't need to be invincible.  I just need to not give up.  I don't need to be flawless, I just need to keep getting better.  I don't have to never fail, I just have to trend upwards.

Sisyphus deals with finding himself at the bottom of the hill over and over and over.  I like to think he was always better hilltop over hilltop.  I like to think he uses his time at the bottom of the hill for self-reflection.

Maybe there are more than one areas on the hill to reflect, like campsites on the way to the top of a mountain.  Some are closer to the top of the hill, some are further.  Only the Sherpa get familiar with all of the spots, and this is certainly my mountain.  I am back down at base camp training up a new me.  I'll see how much the guy has learned before we heads back up.