24 October, 2008

Malice

There seems to be some malicious shit going on in my life.  I am not sure how my accounts have been accessed, but it seems they are severely compromised.  I consider myself pretty IPsec savvy, but I am not the sharpest stick in the woodpile, I am sure.  
Maybe something is going on to just make it seem like I have been hacked.   Maybe there is some cult or conspiracy.  I don’t know.  But I am fucking confused.
If I have done something to offend someone then unless you communicate with me there is no way we can resolve it.  Maybe you don’t want resolution; maybe you think you will find happiness by following me around cyberstalking me and sending letters to everyone of my acquaintances that you can find.
I don’t know.  It is my opinion that you probably won’t find happiness that way.  The chances that I harmed you intentionally are pretty slim.  I’m not saying I’ll never do something wrong or stupid.  I will not say I am never going to strike out in anger or strike back in defense, but I generally am a pretty polite person.  I have hurt enough people in my life, and i have no desire to hurt people now. 
Have I said or done something that was inappropriate?  Have I offended you because of something I said or failed to say?  That I did or did not do?
If I owe you an apology, if I have wronged you in some way, I ask that you give me the opportunity to make amends.  I have the ability to admit mistakes.  But how can I do that if I don’t know what I have done?
The harm you do yourself is far greater than the harm you can cause.  You can annoy me, hurt feelings and spread hatred, bitterness, or malice.  You might even be able to access my financial records and play havoc with my identity. 
But that doesn’t change who I am.  If you want to change who I am, you have to help me to understand.  For good or bad, I am still the same man I was whenever I did what I may have done.  But who have you become in order to do these things you are doing?
At least my mistakes are unintentional, and my harm was neither illegal nor malicious.

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