20 December, 2003

Greatest Moments

The first thing I thought of when I read this weeks theme was….crap. Why are the limits so strict? Last week I had to choose just one guy to spend a day with, now I have to pick just three moments. How unfair is that?
I feel pity for someone who has only three favorite moments. But the theme is not best moments…it is a superlative. What are the three BEST moments? This site doesn’t let me be vague, if I want to play.
If I could group situations into the three best types of situations, it would be easier.
The birth of a child is a wondrous thing, and I have been pleased to witness the birth of two of my children, Calvin and Katja.
But that would be unfair to the births I did not see. Kristopher was born when I was in Iraq in 1990. My ex step son Tyler was born when I was in Macedonia getting ready to enter Kosovo with the IET. I would not want to imply that their births were less special just because I happened to be getting shot at. Saying that the birth was great, because it led to the life (albeit sometimes short) of my children, would not discriminate against peacetime, but then it would be four, instead of three. Curse these limits.
The moment my wives said, “I do”. Those were great moments, but I had three. I would neither want to imply that they were the best moments, cause wife number three was the best (which is why she is current one, of course, but I loved all three, in their time), nor would I want to have to be restricted to those three. It was extremely wonderful, those moments that I realized that I had found a person that I loved, and loved me, but I would hate to think that only happens only three times, let alone just once.
To love is to honor someone, (except agape, or brotherly, love. It should be freely given, but taken away when misused) because it is a great gift as well as recognition of worth. We do not love just anyone. Whether we know it or not, there are reasons for loving the people that we do. We can either choose to decide these reasons or just go with what nature and our upbringing gave us. One of my best moments would be the day that I realized that my love was not something that could be demanded of me, that it was mine to give to whomever I chose.
Cogito, ergo sum. I think, therefore I am. Rene Descartes is credited with saying this first, but I doubt he was the first to realize it. He was probably the first with the balls to say it. Luckily it was during the Renaissance, so he had only a small chance to be burned at the stake for heresy.
I think, therefore I am. It means that I need no validation on my life, or permission to live. The fact that I am able to consider my mortality and my existence is proof enough that I am here, and reason enough for me to exist. We can think about stuff and figure it out. Now, the geek side of me just loves this part. There are no mysteries that are impossible to understand, there is nothing that must be taken on faith alone. My mother-in-law has that classic faith about her religion; meaning she never had to think about it. She just has faith. I respect her faith, because she does not misuse it. I only take offense when someone tries to use their faith as a proof that I have to change my beliefs. Well, I take offense as well as a great deal of pleasure in hurting their feelings for attempting to pass counterfeit bills in my mental store.
If I need to know it, I can understand it, I can investigate it, and I can prove it. There are no inconsistencies in life, there are no contradictions. If you find a contradiction, you have to examine your basic premises. You will find that one of them is wrong.
There is an epiphany in every Man’s life, where he or she realizes that they are the highest form of life on this planet. The ramifications are that, since I can analyze everything, I am left no excuse for doing something ‘on accident’. My actions should be well thought out, the possible results weighed carefully, and full responsibility should be taken any time action is. The devil does not make me do bad things, nor do I kill, wound or harm merely because I am told to (Nuremberg War Crimes Tribunal, look it up). I am the master of my fate, and the Captain of my ship on the sea of life. (That sounds pretty lame without background music, but that is how I feel. I am straight out of a comic book in some ways.) The moment that I realized that I could think, and accepted the responsibility for my actions, is the second best moment of my life.
My mother was Catholic, but excommunicated because she had the nerve to remarry after her husband died without getting the first marriage annulled. This would have made my half brother a bastard, by definition. And though he was a bastard to me quite often as I grew up, I fully understand her reasons for telling the Catholic Church to kiss her rather large ass. So she took us all on an exploration of religions, or so I thought. We were just going to different Christian churches. But they have the same basic message: we are all worthless in the eyes of some supreme being who is jealous, petty, and prideful. The only way we can gain entrance into some mythical realm is to accept grace, because works are not enough. And, best of all, when we get there to heaven we get to spend eternity worshiping at this little tyrants feet. Yipee kay yay. I kind of understand why Lucifer bailed. So I became agnostic, practically and for all intensive purposes, atheist.
Later, when I had grown up at least to the extent I could join the Army, I found there were people in the world who were not Christian. (gasp!) So I studied Hindu, Buddhism, metaphysics, Ritual, or High Magic, Hopi, Navajo, and any other religion I could find. They all had a lot of Truth in them, none of them seemed to be all Truth.
I think religion is like a path on a mountain or a stream running to the sea. Paths and streams converge, all ending at the top of the mountain or the sea. Each taking a different route, but all making it to the destination. I realized that any Path could be suited to someone, but the purpose of life was to find the Path that suited me. I found paganism, in which I could be very eclectic, worship in tune with the Earth, respect all living things, and not have my attitudes towards sexuality (read Heinlein) and freedom (read Rand) be disparaged.
My greatest moment was when I figured out my place in the Universe to an extent that I was satisfied with the answer, even though I continue searching for Truth wherever I find it.
The Infantry manual tells us to never wait until all the information is available to make a plan, never wait until the plan is perfect to act, and never fail to adapt the plan when the situation dictates. That is how I live my life. The manual also says that any plan, no matter how lame, if executed with motivation and discipline, is better than a flawless plan never executed. That is how I live my life.
Are they related? Yeah, I think so. I think, I love, I evolve. If I could not think, I could not have recognized true love. If I was not willing to risk true love, I would never truly understood the nature of my immortality, and if the energy that is me and my Higher Self were not immortal, it avails me not that I can think.

Happy Birthday, Katja!!!  I love you more than I will be able to show in one lifetime

12 December, 2003

Spend a day in the past

I figure there are three reasons to go back. One is enjoyment, as in meeting a hero or movie star. Another would be to change history, as in killing Hitler before Krystalnacht (or just rallying the people against it), or telling Patton he was right not to trust the Communists, so beat them to Berlin, et al, ad infinitum. The last would be education, because the victors write the history books, and how can we know what really happened if we weren’t there? I group things like going back to meet Jesus, Buddha, Mohamed, or even Heinlein or Rand under education.
Entertainment seems kind of a waste of opportunity. There is enough entertainment here. Now if I could take a vacation in the continuum, then, yeah, I would love to meet Mozart, or Einstein, or Da Vinci. But if it is just one day, I think I would pick another reason.
Changing history seems like a good reason to go back. Take a day and change history by convincing someone not to take a certain action. Or just take a day and assassinate someone before they can do something. I could stop Oswald and see if JFK dies anyway. That would be educational. But what else changes? The world may have gone the same way it did, regardless of who I changed or killed or saved. And I might make it worse. I would want to do some research on quantum theory and talk to my gods before I ever took any drastic measures. I wouldn’t want to screw up Deity(ie)’s cosmic plan just because I didn’t understand it. That would be bad karma, I am betting.
I think I would go back for education. That one seemed like it would be a piece of cake until I actually though about it. How to narrow it down to just one person. I would like to pick 24 people and spend an hour with each of them, to maximnize the time; but that wasn’t the theme, so no cheating…
The two historical figures that have had the most impact in my life have been Robert A. Heinlein and Ayn Rand, both philosopher/novelists. I would go ask them to fill in the gaps in their world views that they could not put in their books. I would tell them how the world is today, and ask them if they had any insights, or suggestions to improve it. Rand probably would not, given the theme of Atlas Shrugged. But Heinlein had the added benefit of being a near prophetic science fiction author of the latter part of the 20th century, and so he may have seen farther than Rand, who grew up in Communist Russia.
So I would pick Heinlein.
Heinlein also had such a spiritual side to his writings. The first Heinlein I read was Stranger in a Strange Land, in ninth grade. It was a good read for an agnostic that was leaning towards atheist. It put it in my head that my concept of Deity was not restricted by the dogma of the major religions (and all I really knew about then was Christian, Hindu, and Muslim. I had not yet been exposed to Paganism).
This stuck in the back of my head, and so I was open to Paganism when I was exposed. [What is funny is that the argument that Harry Potter is leading kids to witchcraft is accurate, it just isn’t bad like they make it sound. It won’t lead everyone to it, but it tears down the stereotype of the wicked witch of the west crap.] That is what Heinlein did for me. Heinlein didn’t make me a witch, or a pagan. He made me THINK. ANything that makes someone use the ol noggin can’t be bad, unless you are trying to hide something from them.
Heinlein’s heroines are the best part about his work. Some critics say that Heinlein was sexist; I say those critics are just scared of the strong feminine archetype, because Heinlein did not make his Ladies sexless. On the contrary, they were as lustfull as a Highland lass at Beltain. It seems society (a lot of men) can’t handle a strong woman; cause how will they get her to sleep with them if she is not helpless.
I wasn’t shocked when the Kinsey’s reported that some women actually LIKED sex (big gasp from the collective). I was shocked that so many people were shocked about it. But Heinleinian females were not impressed with the crap that impresses the ‘helpless’ female. And I wanted a Heinlein woman. I wanted a Heinlein WORLD, but a woman was within my reach.
Heinlein helped me shape my thoughts in almost every way imaginable, from my definition of patriotism to my concepts of economics, from my opinions about sexuality to my definition of honor, my relationship with Deity, and my relationship with my Family and Friends. If I could go back and spend time with a Fictional Character, it would be Woodrow Wilson Smith, aka Lazarus Long, the great ancestor of Michael Valentine Smith, the protagonist of Stranger in a Strange Land.
I thought about the concept of going back in time to spend a day with my younger self, what that could lead to.
Would I want to do all the talking, or all the listening? Would I let the me then know that I was the me now, or keep it a secret?
I know that I wouldn’t want to tell myself not to make some of the mistakes I would make. Everything that we do in the past brings us to where we are in the present. I have made my share of mistakes. But unless I could be sure that I could have reached where I am now without the pain, I wouldn’t change any mistake, or skipped any hardship.
Life isn’t about sailing on calm waters, it is about learning to steer through the rough ones and stay on your charted course. Of course, sometimes I have been happy just to stay afloat, and there is nothing wrong with that as a lifes mission; but I always wanted more than to merely survive. Any living thing wants to survive. I have always searched for what makes us different from the animals. (even though I revel in the things we have in common with the animals, just as much).
It is the abstract things that set us apart. A dog can be loyal, and a cat can show love (or at least tolerance, lol), but values are something which set us apart; a spiritual nature does, as well. Come to think of it, the choice NOT to have a spiritual nature sets us apart, maybe more. I think animals have a spiritual nature, but they can not choose NOT to, it is not a choice.
I would tell myself to take a few more chances. I would also try to help with lessons that go with the opposition I would face and the mistakes I would make, but not too much. Something crytpic, that I wouldn’t understand until years in the future, when I was experiencing the lesson.
But I would only do any of this if I could be assured that I would still have my wife and my kids when I came back to today.
I have a wife that loves me, laughs with me, is willing to cry with me, and can be strong when I cannot. She shares my beliefs, and my passions. I have children that delight my mind as well as my eye. I have an extended family that, though geographically seperated from me and happily living their own lives, would take me in with open arms at the drop of a hat if I ever needed it, and they know the offer stands just as well at my Hearth. I have an ancestry that is proud and distinguished, and I like to think that my Tree will continue growing ever wiser and stronger.
So, if I did go back, it would mostly be to say thank you. But I can do that from here.

25 November, 2003

Adam, the father of all chauvinism

Disclaimer: This story is interpretive. Though there is a basis in literature, it is based primarily on my research and sociological experiences, and is of course filtered through my world view. The characters in this story are a work of fiction. Any similarity to any persons, living or dead, or born again, is strictly coincidental. Offer void where prohibited.
When we left our heroine, she had fallen from the good graces of Adam.
Adam was the kind of guy who would tell you his woman didn’t need a watch because there was a clock on the stove. How many guys like Adam does it take to open a beer? None, it should be open when Eve brings it to him. And sadly, since so many guys from places like Brazil or who just think it is ok to slap your woman around a bit or a bit more to straighten her out if she gets out of line or otherwise pisses you off, {you sorry pieces of dung beetle vomit, the lowest depths of the most sadistic catholic church’s version of hell is reserved for people like you *spits*} , what does Adam tell a woman with two black eyes? Nothing, he done told her twice.
Adam was a chauvinist, he looked at women as property. Only someone who looks at women as property could ever beat them. Hell, I don’t even beat my dogs, couldn’t beat my cat if I tried cause they are quicker than me. How does someone beat something as precious as a woman? What sort of sick fucking world is it when this marvel of Creation is beaten and abused by the people who SHOULD be most grateful for her existence? People like Adam are reasons why people like Cain kill their brother over some petty shit. Come to think of it, what sort of sick fucking concept of deity is it that would disparage the gift of one child over another? And Yahweh is supposed to be the father of all Creation? FUCK Yahweh, even I am smart enough to know that if I show more attention to one than I do the other, it would encourage sibling rivalry. Can any one out there look me in the eye and tell me that GOD DIDN’T KNOW THAT? Tell me that he did not consider the consequences of having your freaking GOD pick your brother over you? What a dipshit, he was more like the psycho uncle that tortured you mercilessly to get back at his big brother vicariously.
If you are reading this and you are a Christian, I mean no offense to you. If your faith makes you a better person, you are the better to follow it. I am just saying it doesn’t make sense to me, not saying you chose to follow a stupid faith that makes no sense if given any real thought. I am not saying you are sheep, and lazy at that for wanting to choose a religion that didn’t even require you to WORK for salvation. Like fast food salvation, offer your dignity and individuality and concept of what is real and what is make believe at the first window and pick up your halo at the second window hallelujah can I get an AMEN!
However, if you were offended and are still reading, you didn’t read my disclaimer. Tough, you can’t sue, you’ll just have to deal with being offended. If I make one person think out of the thousands tens that read me and may get offended, I have made the world a better place. And if you are offended, and yet you still read, you have to ask yourself WHY?
I am never offended, except when a foolish argument is given for doing anything. Top two dipshit answers are ‘Cause the Bible says to’ and ’cause that’s the way it’s always been done.’
But I digress…this is about Lilith’s joke on Adam, the original Chauvinist Pig (maybe that’s why pork is unclean…)
Adam casts out Lilith because she was told she got half by god, and Adam didn’t like the prenup, so he bailed. Plus, Lilith wanted to be on top ALL THE TIME, like in that movie, and it hurt his male itty bitty ego. Freud forgot one. It is actually Id, Ego, Superego, and Penisego. Perhaps penis envy could be listed there, but I think not…anyway, on with the rant.
It is quite possible, however, that Adam was just moving on, much like everyone will like the tramp, but no one will marry her. *See In Praise of the Slitches, coming soon to a theater near you, if your theater lets you log on to this site, anyway.* I imagine his conversation to be something like this:
Well, god just promoted me to the head position of the new Garden that they put in. It is time to settle down, get me a nice girl I can take home to momma, take care of the house and kids n stuff. Can’t be seen with a little tramp like Lilith, wouldn’t seem right. She’ll probably start making suggestions around the garden or something stupid like that; she can be so annoying. She sure is a wildcat in bed though. Gonna miss tappin that ass. Oh well, time to ask for a permanent model, maybe with an interface that is a bit more docile. Then I can always make the booty call. Ah, life is good
So Adam casts out Lilith and petitions god to make him a more sheepish version of the Goddess incarnate (all Hail Women!) Enter Eve.
Now, Eve was your standard 1910’s housewife, docile and unaware of what women of post WW1 America knew, that women could do the job of any man. But, like many June Cleaver’s, she got restless when there was no excitement in her life. No sex, except maybe when the Swimsuit issue came out, and even then, blech…
But the garden was beautiful, so she would wander through it, enjoying the scent and sounds and sunlight. She like to sunbathe, in the nude, of course, but didn’t like Adam to ogle her. He thought just cause she was naked, or walking a certain way, that she was inviting sexual interludes. The dude did just not respect the barnyard dance. He was so busy dominating the animals and the planet he never saw what it could teach him. Did I mention he was a fool as well as a chauvinist?
So, to ensure her privacy, she would sunbathe down by that Tree that god had said was taboo. Adam was such a chicken shit to approach a taboo subject that he didn’t even go near that part of the garden, preferring his blissful ignorance to the birth pains of a new idea. She could lay in the grass and adore the suns caresses on her skin. She must have looked lovely, a picture of innocence, the fruit ripe for the taking, the snow still pristine. Britney Spears but before there were Catholics, ya get the picture.
Enter Lilith. Two possible reasons Lilith could have gone after Eve the way that she did. Could be one, both, or something I haven’t figured out. The way I see it, Lilith was going to get back at Adam for kicking her to the curb. I mean, she probably even gave him oral sex (gasp!) when he was feeling tired after a long day of worshiping at god’s feet. And, not altogether outside the realm of possibilities, she was just wandering around and happened to see Eve there. Maybe she had taken to accidentally be there when Eve would like to sunbathe. Either way, I am sure she found Eve to be a delectable morsel too tempting to resist. If I understand Lilith like I think I do, Lilith was just too sensual to pass up a chance to get some lovin in. Maybe she and Eve became friends at a book burning or something, I wasn’t there. Lilith had a sense of irony and scathing wit that she saw the humor in beating Adam at his own game.

24 November, 2003

Why I bow to Ann Rand

For those of you who are not familiar with the works of Ayn Rand, here are some selections.
As Heinlein gives me hope and a path for the future, Ayn Rand gives me practical applications for the present.
If you know my books, you know me.
If you are familiar with Ayn Rand, you would know that she would consider it an insult for me to bow to her, but I hope her memory understands the respect I intend when I say I bow to her mind.
In Memory of Ayn Rand(1905-1982)
  • Guilt is a rope that wears thin.
  • Happiness is that state of consciousness which proceeds from the achievement of one’s values.
  • Thanksgiving is a typically American holiday…The lavish meal is a symbol of the fact that abundant consumption is the result and reward of production.
  • I need no warrant for being, and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction. Anthem, 1946
  • It is not advisable, James, to venture unsolicited opinions. You should spare yourself the embarrassing discovery of their exact value to your listener. Atlas Shrugged, 1957
  • The evil of the world is made possible by nothing but the sanction you give it. Atlas Shrugged, 1957
  • The spread of evil is the symptom of a vacuum. whenever evil wins, it is only by default: by the moral failure of those who evade the fact that there can be no compromise on basic principles. Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal, 1966
  • The Argument from Intimidation is a confession of intellectual impotence. The Virtue of Selfishness, 1964
  • Civilization is the progress toward a society of privacy. The savage’s whole existence is public, ruled by the laws of his tribe. Civilization is the process of setting man free from men. The Fountainhead (1943)
  • Upper classes are a nation’s past; the middle class is its future.
  • There is a level of cowardice lower than that of the conformist: the fashionable non-conformist.
  • The right to vote is a consequence, not a primary cause, of a free social system — and its value depends on the constitutional structure implementing and strictly delimiting the voters’ power; unlimited majority rule is an instance of the principle of tyranny.
  • Whatever their future, at the dawn of their lives, men seek a noble vision of man’s nature and of life’s potential The Fountainhead
  • I can accept anything, except what seems to be the easiest for most people: the half-way, the almost, the just-about, the in-between.
  • Civilization is the process of setting man free from men.
  • Men have been taught that it is a virtue to agree with others. But the creator is the man who disagrees. Men have been taught that it is a virtue to swim with the current. But the creator is the man who goes against the current. Men have been taught that it is a virtue to stand together. But the creator is the man who stands alone.
  • My philosophy, in essence, is the concept of man as a heroic being, with his own happiness as the moral purpose of his life, with productive achievement as his noblest activity, and reason as his only absolute.
  • The theory of objectivism states that what truly goes on in the world is beyond our understanding because it’s all about how we perceive the world, which isn’t always accurate and is often way off the mark.
  • That which you call your soul or spirit is your consciousness, and that which you call ‘free will’ is your mind’s freedom to think or not, the only will you have, your only freedom, the choice that controls all the choices you make and determines your life and your character.
  • Pride is the recognition of the fact that you are your own highest value and, like all of man’s values, it has to be earned. Atlas Shrugged
  • Honesty is the recognition of the fact that the unreal is unreal and can have no value, that neither love nor fame nor cash is a value if obtained by fraud. Atlas Shrugged
  • Integrity is the recognition of the fact that you cannot fake your consciousness, just as honesty is the recognition of the fact that you cannot fake existence. Atlas Shrugged
  • Independence is the recognition of the fact that yours is the responsibility of judgment and nothing can help you escape it. Atlas Shrugged
  • Rationality is the recognition of the fact that nothing can alter the truth and nothing can take precedence over that act of perceiving it. Atlas Shrugged
  • Love is our response to our highest values. Love is self-enjoyment. The noblest love is born out of admiration of another’s values. Atlas Shrugged
  • Happiness is possible only to a rational man, the man who desires nothing but rational goals, seeks nothing but rational values and finds his joy in nothing but rational actions. Atlas Shrugged
  • The spread of evil is the symptom of a vacuum. whenever evil wins, it is only by default: by the moral failure of those who evade the fact that there can be no compromise on basic principles. Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal, 1966

Why I bow to Heinlein

For those of you who are not familiar with Heinlein, here are some quotes which should shed some light why Heinlein is one of the few minds I will bow to. Literature gives wings to the soul.
Lazarus Long is the closest thing to an idol that I could choose, in that I look to his character for insight and wisdom.
Selected Quotes from the character, Lazurus Long
  • A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.
  • Always listen to the experts. They’ll tell you what can’t be done, and why. Then do it.
  • Always yield to temptation, It may never pass your way again.
  • Certainly the game is rigged. Don’t let that stop you; if you don’t bet you can’t win.”
  • God is omnipotent, omniscient, and omnibenevolent—it says so right here on the label. If you have a mind capable of believing all three of these divine attributes simultaneously, I have a wonderful bargain for you. No checks, please. Cash and in small bills.
  • Of all the strange “crimes” that human beings have legislated out of nothing, “blasphemy” is the most amazing—with “obscenity” and “indecent exposure” fighting it out for the second and third place.
  • The meek shall inherit the earth, a 6 foot plot above them.
  • The ways of God and government and girls are all mysterious, and it is not given to mortal man to understand them.”
  • What are the facts? Again and again and again–what are the _facts_? Shun wishful thinking, ignore divine revelation, forget what “the stars foretell,” avoid opinion, care not what the neighbors think, never mind the unguessable “verdict of history,” –what are the facts, and to how many decimal places? You pilot always into an unknown future; facts are your only clue. Get the facts!
Selected quotes from the book Stranger in a Strange Land
  • “I’ve found out why people laugh. They laugh because it hurts so much . . . because it’s the only thing that’ll make it stop hurting.
    … I had thought–I had been told–that a “funny” thing is a thing of a goodness. It isn’t. Not ever is it funny to the person it happens to. Like that sheriff without his pants. The goodness is in the laughing itself. I grok it is a bravery . . . and a sharing . . . against pain and sorrow and defeat.”
  • … sex should be a means of happiness. The worst thing about sex is that we use it to hurt each other. It ought never to hurt; it should bring happiness, or, at the very least, pleasure.There is no good reason why it should ever be anything less.
  • But goodness alone is never enough. A hard cold wisdom is required, too, for goodness to accomplish good. Goodness without wisdom invariably accomplishes evil.
  • Democracy is a poor system of government at best; the only thing that can honestly be said in its favor is that it is about eight times as good as any other method the human race has ever tried. Democracy’s worst fault is that its leaders are likely to reflect the faults and virtues of their constituents–a depressingly low level, but what else can you expect?
  • Don’t use that word (fantastic) to a lawyer; straining at gnats and swallowing camels is a required course in law school… In the fifteenth century the Pope deeded the Western Hemisphere to Portugal and Spain, and nobody cared that the real estate was occupied by people with their owns laws, customs, and property rights. His grant was effective, too — Look at a map and notice where Spanish is spoken and Portuguese is spoken.
  • He should have known better because, early in his learnings under his brother Mahmoud, he had discovered that long human words (the longer the better) were easy, unmistakable, and rarely changed their meanings, but short words were slippery, unpredictable changing their meanings without any pattern. Or so he seemed to grok. Short human words were never like a short Martian word — such as “grok” which forever meant exactly the same thing. Short human words were like trying to lift water with a knife. And this had been a very short word.Valentine Michael Smith’s musings on “God”
  • His idea is that whenever you encounter any other grokking thing — he didn’t say “grokking” at this stage – – any other living thing, man, woman, or stray cat… you are simply encountering your “other end”… and the universe is just a little thing we whipped up among us the other night for our entertainment and then agreed to forget the gag.
    Human bipolarity was both binding force and driving energy for all human behavior, from sonnets to nuclear equations. If any being thinks that human psychologists have exaggerated this, let it search Terran patent offices, libraries, and art galleries for the creations of eunuchs.
  • I do know that the slickest way to lie is to tell the right amount of truth – then to shut up.
  • Mike gives a kiss his whole attention.
  • She walked up to him, stood on tiptoes, and held up her arms. “Kiss me, Mike.” Mike did. For some seconds they “grew closer.” Dorcas fainted.
  • The code says, “Thou shalt not covet they [sic] neighbor’s wife”–and the result? Reluctant chastity, adultery, jealousy, bitter family fights, blows and sometimes murder, broken homes and twisted children . . . and furtive, dirty little passes at country club dances and the like, degrading to both man and woman whether consummated or not. Is this injunction ever obeyed? The Commandment not to “covet” I mean; I’m not refering to any physical act. I wonder. If a man swore to me on a stack of his own Bibles that he had refrained from coveting another man’s wife because the code forbade it, I would suspect either self-decepiton or subnormal sexuality. Any male virile enough to sire a child is almost certainly so virile that he has coveted many, many women–whether he takes action in the matter or not.
    Now comes Mike and says: “There’s no need for you to covet my wife . . . love her! There’s no limit to her love, we all have everything to gain–and nothing to lose but fear and guilt and hatred and jealousy.”
  • The Universe was a damned silly place at best… but the least likely explanation for its existence was the no-explanation of random chance, the conceit that some abstract somethings “just happened” to be some atoms that “just happened” to look like consistent laws and then some of these configurations “just happened” to be the Man from Mars and the other a bald-headed old coot with Jubal himself inside.
  • No, Jubal would not buy the “just happened” theory, popular as it was with men who called themselves scientists. Random chance was not a sufficient explanation of the Universe–in fact, random chance was not sufficient to explain random chance; the pot could not hold itself.
  • There comes a time in the life of every human when he or she must decide to risk “his life, his fortune, and his sacred honor” on an outcome dubious. Those who fail the challenge are merely overgrown children, can never be anything else.
  • Thou art God and I am God and all that groks is God, and I am all that I have ever been or seen or felt or experienced.

13 November, 2003

Why isn't Moore in prison...

…for contempt of court?
If I hadn’t already had a suspicions that the fall of western civilization as a free society is well under way, the hub bub around this Moore character pinned a rose on it.
This guy is a classic case of give him an inch and he’ll take a mile. He is the very essence of why we must not let religion encroach upon government. But it already has, so I should have used the past tense.
Chief Justice(fired) Roy Moore started his notoriety by becoming the “Ten Commandments Judge” back in 1997, when he was a district judge in Alabama. Nobody much noticed, cause we were busy in Bosnia. It seems he had carved the ten commandments on a piece of wood and mounted it behind his bench. He was ordered to remove it, and refused.
At that time, the Governor Fob and Attorney General Pryorcame to his rescue, to the point where they were ready to call out the National Guard. He became so popular because of his contempt for the Constitution that he was able to run for and win the position of Chief Justice.
Since he was rewarded for his contempt, he felt obliged to again put up his concept of morality, hence the massive misuse of stone in the Alabama courthouse. Right there in the center of the lobby, where you had to walk past to get inside.
People again complained, and eventually, the Moore was ordered to remove the monument. Remember, this is a COURT HOUSE, not a CHURCH. Sorry about the caps, but the people who write newspeak want you to start thinking they are the same thing. They are not, I assure you, and the death of Freedom for America will begin when the issue is thoroughly obfuscated and dissembled.
The First Amendment reads:“Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof … .”
The case is quite simple, really. Moore was violating the law in actually two separate areas. He was violating the First Amendment, and he was violating fair labor practices. He also refused to allow a marker for Martin Luther King, Jr's “I have a dream’ speech to be placed next to it, so there are other discriminations going on, as well. I used to live in Alabama, and they love this crap. This is the state that their governor (Wallace) stood on the steps of a state university and swore he would never let a ni**er on the campus. They elected him three times, and then his wife.
The First Amendment quite simply, means that Congress can neither embrace or discriminate against any religion.
That is why this amendment is sometimes referred to as the ‘separation clause’, even though the separation of church and state is not mentioned.
Moore, and many other Christians and right-wingers, will tell you that the intent of the founding fathers was for the morality of America be legislated, and it be christian. They will argue that the Founding Fathers were christian, and that they proved it when they talked about ‘Our Creator” and ‘…by their Creator’. They say that this shows that faith is written into the Constitution.
Yes, some of the founding fathers were christian, but some were not. Jefferson, Franklin, And the ones who were not, well, I think they were the real movers and shakers in the revolution and in the wording of the Constitution. I think some Christians today are a little bit like sheep. If Christians back then were like Christians today, they never could have pulled off the revolution. That is another ramble…
So anyway, the founding fathers were of differing religious opinions, but they all had one thing in common, and that is that they were victims of religious discrimination in England, or knew someone who had been. They knew a simple truth: there can be no freedom of worship unless there were a permanent ban on state sponsored religion.
“The United States is not a Christian nation any more than it is a Jewish or a Mohammedan nation.”– Treaty of Tripoli (1797), President John Adams
John Adams was not only the second president of the United States, he was a Founding Father. His stated religion is Unitarian, so he did believe in a Higher Power, but not the Jehovah of Christian litany. He was known as the ‘Atlas of Independence’. Now look me in the eye and tell me that the Founding Fathers were all Christian and they had INTENDED America to be a Christian Nation, or even that the Constitution is based on Christian morality.

07 November, 2003

The story of Eve, according to me

I was writing recently about this weeks theme, and it got me to thinking about the types of women I am attracted to. IF you have never read anything I have written before, I like women like Robert Heinlein’s femme fatale heroines.
This got me to thinking about Eve, and that got me to thinking about Lilith, which of course got me to thinking about the ‘original sin’ scam played on western religions.
Before long, I had so many thoughts going at once, I thought I would write them down, since that is why I started this diary in the first place. A therapist once told me that a diary was for feelings, and not thoughts, but damned if she could explain to me how to separate them. So, maybe I don’t get any therapeutic value out of this, but at the very least, I sort out my thoughts on things, and that can’t be bad, in my book.
Anyway, end of rambling, on with ranting…
For those who have never heard of Lilith, she was, in some mythologies, the first wife / partner of Adam. Many of you, most Christians, will point out that Eve was Adam’s wife. I offer for the courts perusal as Exhibit A the Holy Bible, New King James Version..
Genesis 1:27 So God created man in his own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.
Here we have Lilith, created with Adam, not from his rib. She and Adam were equal, in all things. This is the Eve of Mohammed, also, because the Koran also explains creation like this, with the woman being equal to the man. It is only the culture of the Arab world that oppresses women, not the religion.
Not so, will argue my fundamentalist Christian friends, because the Bible tells the woman to submit to her husband; but this is a whole other rant, so I can not get sidetracked here. I offer my proof, however, again from Exhibit A.
Genesis 1:28 Then God blessed them, and God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it; have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth.
Notice that woman is given dominion in equal share with the man, she is not made subject to the man. They are both in the likeness of God.
[There is also a valid argument that there are two males, as well, and that the first set of man and woman was created between the second and third day. See Genesis 2:4-7. It suggests that the first set of man and woman were created as a workforce, because “..there was no man to till the ground.”
Anyway, I am sticking to the one Adam, two wives theory, for now, but the other one has some interesting tangents to follow.]
As the story goes, Adam was not happy with Lilith. Lilith was too strong of a person for Adam. Some say she even had the nerve to take charge in bed (collective gasp from the readers) and to want to actually ‘be on top’. Adam couldn’t deal with that, so he tossed out Lilith and complained to God that he just couldn’t find good help. (see Genesis 2:20)
So God created Woman,
Genesis 2:22 Then the rib …He made into woman, and He brought her to the man.”
and Adam named her Eve.
Gen. 2:25 And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and they were not ashamed. (possibly the best bible verse EVER)
Adam thought he had it pretty good. He got to run wild with a lovely tramp named Lilith in his youth, booted her out when he couldn’t control her, and then he petitioned for a more docile version of female that he could control. Or so he thought.
*evil, maniacal laughter*

Jessica Lynch

Jessica Lynch was a victim, not a hero
Prepare to be pissed off. If you are spoon fed your opinions, this might make you choke.
PFC Lynch found herself under the mediocre command of a fool who could not read a map.
End of story.
How many people have died because of fools that were in charge? It does NOT make them heroes to survive a fool. It makes them lucky to be alive.
America had not wanted to do the whole awe-and-shock crap, we could have walked through Iraq, mopping up as we went along. Any AIT Infantryman will tell you this is easier then going back.
PFC Lynch had been under the control of a Warrior, as opposed to a CLERK WEARING CAPTAINS BARS, they would not have taken a wrong turn.
REMF’s had actually done Sergeant’s Time, they would have been able to defend themselves.
Bush hadn’t wanted to play, “I have a bigger penis than my dad”, this war need not have happened.
Check my facts, and my background. Then, if you think I am wrong, tell me why.

06 November, 2003


Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
What a scary term, for those who know nothing of military life. They might think that it is only Viet Nam vets that have PTSD.
Sorry, Agent Orange is what Viet Nam has. PTSD is available to all.
If you were ever in a violent situation (bank robbery, car crash, molestation) you are subject to PTSD.
PTSD means only that you were in a crappy situation, and need help dealing with it.
Killing someone is a crappy situation. You would think that the military would be aware of it, since we do it all the time, and PTSD is a catch phrase at the VA.
But no one talks about PTSD until some ‘crazy veteran’ is up on a rooftop.
People! We sent men and women to kill. That is not normal. A catchy country and western song is NOT going to fix them.
Call your Congress(wo)man, call your representative. Make sure your military is taken care of, now, because it doesn’t make sense to wait.
My Platoon Sergeant told me many years ago that a shit sandwich seven days old was just a stale shit sandwich. Eat it fresh, was his point. You will eat it, sooner or later, was his moral.
Bon Appetite

05 November, 2003

War sucks and then you die

I am so sick of people.
9-11 happened, and everyone was ready to fight. They played right into the hands of a group of people who wanted an excuse to attack.
Pearl Harbor happened also. Did America never read about it? Did America never realize that we could have stopped it?
Roosevelt wanted America in the war; what better way to get them to want to fight?
Bush isn’t even sneaky about it; makes me sad for the stupidity of humanity.
Time will tell; but no one will listen.
I have lost, to date, two people I know in this fight that I sit out of. I lost many the first time. But I fought then. I lost people in Bosnia, in Kosovo, in Albania. Didn’t lose any of mine, but I knew them.
And now the question is, “What do we do?”
It seems like a cop out.
Do not say, “Well, we shouldn’t have done it in the first place.” I know that.
It is so South Park of them all to say that now we have to send more troops, cause THEY ARE COMING RIGHT AT US!
No shit. Kill a bear cause he attacks your camp, you are justified, maybe. Kill a bear cause you fucked with him, now I think you are wrong. The bear was right.
Fuck Bush for making me choose between my country and what was right.
I never should have had to choose.
My country should be right. Fuck my country if it is wrong.
Fuck you, you people who ignored my men when we were being shot at in Kosovo, but raised your flag because of 9-11.

American soldiers are killed almost EVERY day.
Fuck you, you people who thought that our ability to wage war gave us the right to.
Might doesn’t make right, ask your grandfather who fought Hitler.
Fuck you, you people who were CONTENT to watch the war on CNN, but checked their stocks daily to see if a war was good.
Even in Viet Nam, rich people were absolved. I can go to college and not fight, if my daddy is rich. If I am only a genius, but poor, the military can help me pay my way to college; if I live.
Fuck you, you people who now think that a certain number of deaths means it is time to come home.
Tell it to my Brigade, that lost people. Tell it to my friend, who lost her husband.
The reason war is hell is so that you don’t decide to do it over a beer and a country song.

04 November, 2003

In further praise of money

Money represents some of the finer abstracts of life.

Money represents time.
Why do you get a feeling of satisfaction when you buy a new car? Anyone can buy a car, it is not hard. But to buy it with your own money, you feel the satisfaction because you can afford it. You know that whatever you purchase with the money symbolized the time you spent earning the money. It is like being able to look at a slice of the past.
Money represents freedom.
Remember that first paycheck? The exhilaration of being able to EARN your way? Even if it was only forty dollars from a paper route, you knew that you were on your way to liberation. That is why so many entrepreneurs save the first dollar they earn. Only a free Man can accumulate wealth. Show me a slave with a bank account and I will show you a slave that doesn’t know the meaning of slavery.
Money represents the fruits of your labors.
Thomas Jefferson wrote that, “…all Men were Created equal.” But that doesn’t mean we all have the same talents or aptitudes. Money allows us to cash our skills into a common currency so that we can trade with someone else who does not need our particular skill. In other words, money allows the plumber to buy a car, even though the auto manufacturer doesn’t need a plumber right now. Being able to trade skills for cash allows us to do something else, as well. It allows us to accumulate wealth. If we used the barter system, someone could not accumulate wealth if they were, say, a chef. Imagine trying to save up enough gourmet food to trade for a car. You'd need a very large refrigerator.
Money represents quality of life.
I have a car and a computer. I think they improve the quality of my life. I bought them with money I earned. If I had to make my own car and computer, I would have neither, or at the very least they would be of lesser quality.If that does not prove my point, replace the terms ‘car’ and ‘computer’ with ‘medical care’, ‘entertainment’, ‘books’, or anything else that improves your life.
Money represents feeling of a job well done.
You can’t store up a beautiful sunset, just like you cannot bottle a good feeling. But you can take a picture or movie of the sunset, and save those. The good feeling one gets from accomplishment, especially a difficult accomplishment which oftentimes is accompanied by a high salary, is forever stored in the money you got paid for doing it. It is also transferred to the things you purchased with that money.
Money represents the ideals of early America.
I read in a book by Ayn Rand that the term, ‘to make money’, was not invented until America was founded. I cannot confirm or deny the truth of that statement, but I place stock in the good name of Ayn Rand, so I have to give it at least some credence. It is true that our forefathers were, in the large, businessmen who wanted fair trade for goods, and that is one of the reasons we seceded from Britain. Early America was capitalist, and mostly laiseze faire (hands off) capitalist. The ideals of Capitalism are in direct contradiction to the ideals of Marxism, Socialism, and Communism. “From each according to their ability, and to each according to their need.” That is their economic philosophy in a nutshell.
My heart is saddened that in the writing of this, I could only refer to early America as my ideal Capitalist society. Currently, America is a mix of Socialist and Capitalist values. And like most mixes, we seem to be getting the worst of the two, instead of the cream. Germany is socialist, but at least they have a great healthcare, public transportation, and education system. Did our slip into socialism in America provide us with any of those?
‘Nuff said.
Money is far from evil. It represents the values that make Mankind great. It is pursued and attained by people who are unscrupulous, but they cannot taint what money represents. Love of money is not evil, but lust for money and lack of honor in its acquisition could be labeled as evil.

But the ultimate truth is that the richest man in the world never bought a second of time.

Money is Good

I will go farther than to merely say that money is not evil. I will say that money is good.
There is nothing about the earning of and accumulation of wealth. No, it will not buy happiness. Poverty, likewise, does not earn you happiness. Not many are ready in their karmic cycle to give up all their worldly possessions and compete for the title of Ascended Master.
Money is the reward for values I grew up with like hard work, loyalty, integrity, and stick-to-itiveness, for want of a better word. Anyone who is ashamed of wealth did not EARN it. Though I am not wealthy, by today’s standards, I have enough money for the necessities, and whatever luxuries my family might decide upon. I earned my money, and to say the reward for my labors is evil is to suggest that I worked for evil (and that is another story, but still doesn’t make money evil), and that would imply that I was evil. And of all the negative things that people could, rightly, accuse me of, evil is not one of them.
Money has no value of it’s own. It must be assigned value. In turn, people place a value on the goods and services they wish to purchase. The laws of supply and demand are the most basic principles concerning the placement of value on commodities, but they are not the only ones. The market will pay what the market will bear. People will pay whatever they think is fair for something, or else they will not pay for it. (except in the case of taxes). In a mature society, people would demand higher pay for the really important jobs like teacher, nurse, scientist, policeman, fireman, soldier, or EMT.
Of course, everybody wants the people I have mentioned to get good salaries, they just do not want to have to provide for it through taxes. They can’t, so that they can afford their sixty-thousand dollar SUV that puts out as much emission as two sedans and uses three times as much gas. They are willing to pay outrageous fees for a seat at a sporting event, or concert; they shell out $120 dollars for a set of sneakers, and they pay $20 for a CD that cost $0.13 to make. Most people, I would imagine, think the salaries for movie stars and athletes is outrageous.
But we are the ones who agree to pay for them, by purchasing the products they sponsor and produce. In a mature society, the celebrities stars would not be getting millions of dollars, but not because of legislation, but because of market pressure. Just because someone disagrees with the value that society places on something, does not make the currency evil. It is a signal that the society that uses the currency is sick, and is in danger of collapsing.
Money did not determine that a football player should get paid millions of dollars to play a game, while the people who teach your children have bake sales to be able to afford supplies. Society did that. And that is the basic drawback in having a democracy in a country where the majority of people are short minded self centered judgmental hypocrites. Nero, get your fiddle.
I do not completely hold true with the phrase, “The best things in life are free.” Neither do I agree with the song that answers that age old adage with the response that, “You can save them for the birds and the bees. I want money.” While it is true that the abstract things that let one say they live a valuable life are intangible and can not be purchased, all things that are good are not free, because the corollary argument that things that cost money are not good, is false. A balanced life requires both.
The final test of intelligence and use of language is the ability to think and discuss in abstract terms. The abstract things (love, loyalty, dedication, duty, integrity, and honor) of life are the final test of evolution, and can only be purchased with effort, sweat, and Spirit.

Money Isn't Evil, it's a Misquote

The phrase can probably be attributed to Timothy 6:10 out of the Christian religious texts.  But it is a misquote, and it is actually the love of money that is the root of all evil.  Of course, Jesus was reported as saying that, “It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.”  That would seem to imply that merely to have money was somehow sinful.  
But, again, if one looks at the context, it is misconstrued.  It is after a conversation with a pious but wealthy man that Jesus is quoted as saying this.  The pious man had asked what else he could do to be better, and Jesus told him, “If you want to be perfect, sell all of your possessions and give it all to the poor, and follow me.” (Italic’s added by Author)
So, Jesus was telling the guy to do a Buddha-esque ‘great renunciation’, if he desired to be perfect.  Who can argue that leading a monastic life of humility and spiritual endeavors isn’t a great way to spend your days?  All the big ones did it, if you look at any major theology.  Bhuddha gave it all up, Jesus gave it all up, Mohammed gave it all up, as did Nietzche’s Zarathustra.  Nearly every major figure in modern or ancient theologies gained their spiritual enlightenment by walking away from the mundane world for a time to commune with their Creator.  To this day you can become a monk, a nun, or a Shaolin priest if you want to give up your worldly possessions.  But keeping your stuff isn’t evil 
So what Jesus said was not a condemnation of the man’s wealth, but merely the instructions of how to gain enlightenment.  Similar instructions can be found in the Vedas of the Hindu religion on becoming a Holy One (like the Dali Lama).  But, like most people on earth, the man was not ready for that phase of enlightenment; only a few are.  That is why even the ones who tell you that money is evil still have change in their pocket for a cup of coffee and cable TV.  You don’t have to be perfect to lead a rewarding life that affects other people in a positive way, and evil is not the absence of perfection; the absence of perfection is the norm, not evil. 
(As a side note, perfection wouldn’t have helped the guy, anyway, because perfection, impossible as it is, won’t get you into heaven.) 
The argument that money must be evil because of all the evil that is done in the name of accumulation of wealth is faulty, also.  I work to provide for my family, who can say that is evil? 
Money is a tool, just like any other tool.  The same hammer can be used to build an engineering wonder, to build a treehouse, or to bludgeon someone to death.